I am Fearfully and Wonderfully Made!

A situation (I ashamedly admit was over 6 weeks ago) has left me in a timid estate. One where I have lost my self-confidence and become more timid than I probably should be. To the point (again ashamedly to admit) which now is rolling into other areas of my life.

It was a life situation of which I had no clue it was coming. It was like a gut sucker punch. You don’t see it coming, and it’s certainly not expected from the person it’s coming from. It knocks the breath out of you and your dazed, confused, defenseless. You get a hold of your self and then another punch…again out of nowhere. Before you know it, you’re in a fight defending yourself all while wondering “why are you in this position to begin with?’

That is was where I was. I completely didn’t see that coming and emotionally I struggled with how to handle it. I haven’t been in such a position that I could remember and not prepared for it; I froze. Over the last several weeks I have sought out advise, scripture and my elders, for resolution for myself and with this situation. I thought that objective was reached, however now I have discovered there are some remaining wounds. My dilemma now is my attitude and response to this person. I “flinch” in wondering am I going to be sucker punched again and find myself in this “timid” estate; which now has bled into other areas of my life.

So again I have turned to scripture wondering how do you get back to that safe place of home with my Lord, before the thief (the Devil) came to steal my peace from me? I have found scripture telling me,

“God did not make His children to be TIMID” 2 Timothy 1:7

(I am not made to be fearful, cowardice or cringing. But He has given us a spirit of power and of love, calm and of well-balance mind!)

“Casting the whole of your care {all your anxieties, worries, concerns} on Him, for he cares for you affectionately and cares about you watchfully.” 1 Peter 5:7
(I should not and do not have to carry this with me. I can and will give it to Christ. I will only feel his affection for me!)

“For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb. I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well.” Psalms 139:14
(I am made as I am for a reason and I rejoice in that for my Lord created me this way for a reason!)

“But the Lord said to Samuel, “Do not look on his appearance or on the height of his stature, because I have rejected him. For the Lord sees not as name sees: man looks on the outward appearance, but the Lord looks on the heart.” 1 Samuel 16:7
(As this person sees me, does not mean that is accurate or even relevant! My God sees my heart and knows my heart as I seek my Lords will! That is all I should meditate on!)

"I have set the Lord continually before me; because He is at my right head, I shall not be moved. “ Psalm 16:8, Isaiah 41:10
(My Lord is my strength, not others and what they think/say about me. My Lord is my right hand; He is My Compass and My Strength!)

I hope this gives strength to any of you that might have experienced the same thing. To know we are all human and will mess up. But we are not to care our burdens and to become TIMID. We are to take stride in our LORD. We are to turn to HIM and he will give us Refuge! Know that God is a God of Grace, Peace and Joy. Anything outside of that is of the DEVIL (looking to rob you of all things Righteous!)

With Great LOVE for you all-

Sarah